Lost

I ran
I ran
And kept running
I ran towards without a point
Fear was blinding my eyes
I was lost
This fading path doesn’t help a bit

The darkness is chasing
Panic rushed from the top to the toe
I couldn’t stop my body from shaking
And I fell
I fell into a cold deep black hole

And I felt like flying
I felt like flying when I land smoothly
I land smoothly on a hard cold land
And it was empty
There’s nothing
It’s just a dark cold box

When suddenly a spotlight appeared
Lighting a regular park bench
What the hell, am I going crazy?
I walked slowly toward it
And I sat on it
Waiting for what happen next

I waited
And waited
I waited in silent
There was only me, the bench, the darkness, and the cold night wind
My body shook so hard and I was sweating
I sweat even when the air was so freezing

Then suddenly
From the swallowing darkness came a lady
She was beautiful, even with her cold, hard expression
She was wearing a simple white dress
Her skin was as pale as her dress
She was walking in a bare feet
Her hair was long, and wavy, and pale-blonde
Her cold eyes were blue
The atmosphere became warmer and colder at the same time

I encourage myself to talk
“Who are you?’’ I asked
The lady smiled coldly
“Well, who do you think I am?”, she asked
I was angry, how do I suppose to know who she is?
“Well then what are you?” I asked defensively
She smiled again
“Well, what do you think I am?” she asked
I kept silent

I kept silent for long
Then when she realized I was angry, she laughed
Her laugh freezes my back
“I’m an angel” she said
Pfft. Yeah RIGHT
“I’m here to answer your questions” she began to warm out

“then why didn’t you answered when I asked who are you?” I asked
She laughed, not a cold laugh but a warm one
She didn’t answer my question

“What is it that you seek?” she asked instead
“I’m seeking for a truth” I said
“I’m seeking for answers of my questions”

She smiled
“Ask me a question then”

And finally, truth
When I asked, my voice was strong and confident
“What is the purpose of my life when I found nothing in it? To where did I run when I ran from reality, when the fear were trying to catch me? What is actually that I’m seeking, besides to seek for a truth?
I didn’t breath
“Where are the light, the love, the path when I need them?”


The lady took a deep breath
And she began to sing
Not singing actually, like a quote with a little up and downs:

The world started with the frightening darkness that morn the earth
And life began with happiness that they called birth
But then life was like a cheating bet
When there’s only a sudden death

You never ran from reality, indeed
Where ever you go, you will always be trapped in it
But reality doesn’t always hurt
You’ll find what you need if you search

The first thing you seek was happiness
But you felt like you never had it, you began to be hopeless
And now what you seek is a purpose

“Now you found it, keep moving on before it’s cureless”

She ended her song in a mysterious voice
I kept quiet
It needed long to me to think about her answers

I have finally found the answers for my darkest secrets

I smiled to her

“Thank you.” I said
“You’re welcome” she smiled

“Now you’re ready to get back?” she asked
“Get back to where?”
“To your home, to your world of course”

For a moment I’ve forgotten that I am in nowhere

I nodded

“You haven’t answered one of my question.” I said
“Where are the light, love, and path?”
She smiled
“I am your light, your love”
And as she waved her hand a shiny path appeared, leading a way trough the darkness
“And your path”

I smiled, stood up, and ready to walk back home

I stopped
“I have one more question” I said
“Go ahead” she said
“Is this real? Or it’s just in my head?”

She smiled mysteriously
“Of course this is in your head, but why can’t it be real?”

I put my first step in the path and walked slowly

“Remember” She said as I walked away from her
“Keep moving on before it’s cureless”

I walked steadily
But then I thought back about the lady
About how beautiful she is
I don’t want to come back home, I said to myself
I turn around

And suddenly as I turned around, everything became dark
The path was gone and something sucked me out
The pain all over my body was so horrid that I screamed
I have forgotten about what she said

Now it’s cureless

Now there’s nothing

This is worse than death

My soul was suspended(what?-_-), and it fades

Worse than death